MasterDrake8812

Wow! its been a while and no journal. been really busy with school. my classes are okay. I like most of them, all but design -_- its such a downer. anyways i've been getting lazy again. not drawing, cutting class, forgetting homework. it always happens that my energy just puffs and yet i do really nothing. yet i enjoy these things and don't spend time with them. I'm an odd one i am. anyways I'm gonna try getting back into the swing of things this week. happy news got my job back and me and my girlfriend and i are super happy!!! there's bad news but i don't want to get into it( its with the family and my grandma and grandpa). anyways i've been

Holy cow! summers over today, and the new semester starts tomorrow. Excited and quite pleased about my classes this semester. retaking illustrator and taking art design 1. Two art classes =O. to be honest I've been quite nervous and scared about whether i should even be going to college for art. In my opinion i have to real skill at the level I'm at, i was saying to myself i should change my major because this just isn't for me. but then i remember my drawing 1 class. half the students were in the same boat as me and we all came out of that better, and how am i going to get better if i don't work at it and thus GET BETTER. so now I'm excited

SO I'm most....upset! Why? I'm disappointed in myself. even with all that's going on, which isn't all that much, i haven't been drawing. its not like i feel i always have to be or anything, I'm fine with not for a few days, but its the fact that I've got some good ideas and some things i want to try. For one im going to change my style...or rather develop one. i like anime and manga, but they aren't the only styles that i think are really stylish and cool. then their the whole thing of epic doubt running around in my head. i don't really have a good self-esteem which my art.i don't every see myself improving. i just never feel that I've done